WOAH i dropped my bro's hp into a bowl of DARK SOYA SAUCE just now. Now his phone reeks of soya sauce. Ewww.

Anyway just cut my hair. Now it's super LAYERED! Ugly in other words.. Hopefully still got people wanna befriend me at sports camp. LOL. Looking quite forward to sports camp! That will be my 1st camp at ngeeann woah! Caught 2 become 1 today with jianbin. Not bad a movie. I'll give it 3.5/5. Maybe because I can related to the main actress because she had small breasts. HAHA. After that lunched at town. Saw a crumpler laptop bag, maybe getting it!

I wanna watch yours, mine and ours! Someone please date me out!

MY ONLY KEY :)

Though we can hardly be there for each other physically, always remember that I am here for you mentally. That's what KEYS are for yeah? Have fun at ij, jenggg! :DDD

MARELLA boutique. Today i said goodbye to it. After spending 72 days there, I realized I can't bear to leave the place and the people.

Can never forget my first day at work. I was working with Kel. Strangers to each other and a total new environment, I kept alot to myself. I did not have a good beginning when i started working there. Jackie, Cat, Ines etc. I felt that I could not meet up to their expectations of things. Working with them is very pressurizing. And whenever i work with Kel and Jackie or Yani, always felt left out cause they always communicate with each other in malay. During the 1st few days of work, often had e urge to cry because of hunger and stress working with them.

But as time passes, I slowly get to know them better and vice versa. I realized they're a batch of people who can have fun too! Kel, Yani, me and hsingyee started to form 1 clique. We became very close to each other. Always scolding each other and laughing together. It helps to pass time there. LOL.

I will defintely miss all the times I had at Marella, having fun and kena scoldings together. I've also learnt alot from Kel (all the vulgarities..), Yani (where's the best hangout to smoke..LOL) and Jackie (how to handle stress with a smile!) !! I really had fun with you all! I'm glad that I've went through this stage of life with you :DD

Kayjoo and caryn helped me sign up for the sports camp and the freshmen orientation camp (foc) today! Looking forward to make new friends and have some fun at the camps man :)

Quoted from kay's blog:
"It's the process and experience that matters most, even though we might not be able to stay in that stage of life forever. be glad that we've gone through it once. :) "

Very true huh? o.O
Yes I'm really glad :DDDDDDDD

FUCK IT BLOGSPOT.

It's just like many of the times when i feel that my life's so empty. I'm just unsure of myself, unsure of what the future's gonna hold for me. Unsure of my new life that i would soon embark on. Unsure of the new friends that i would make. Would they be like them? Would they understand me the way as they did? Would I have just as much fun as I had with them? I know it's selfish, but I can't help comparing. Afterall they were the ones who stuck with me through the suckiest 4 years of my life (having to deal with puberty sucks, pms sucks) .

During that period when we needed to make our decisions for our application for JAE, i "scolded" and "f*ck" some of the people around me. I simply do not understand why are their decisions so affected by where theire friends are going? It's their own future that we're talking about. So why can't they make the decision by following their heart instead of their friends?

I used to think I was the most optimistic one. The most "fang de xia" person who was perfectly alright with going separate ways as my friends after Os. I thought so. But i was wrong. In fact i felt as though I've lost a part of me. A part of me that was taken away when jeng and cherlyn started school. A part of me that I'm gonna lose when everybody starts school at polys. I never know that I could miss them so much. PHS, the people, 4h, 11 bros and sis, burdens, the hall, the canteen, the LIFE. I would give up anything just to have this moment back. It is just so perfect. I really envy those people who are still in secondary school. I really miss everything of PHS. I know changes are part of life but I really don't want to grow up that fast. How I wish I'm forever 16. Forever stuck in the PHS uniform. Having to wake up at 6am forever. Forever mugging for O levels. But can I?

I know I have to feel better. One day I will but defintely not now. I have to adapt to this whole new life. A whole new life without jeng by my side almost everyday. A whole new life whereby I will see new faces that I've never seen before. A whole new life that demands me to grow up faster. Ok, shall sign up for sports camp tomorrow. Gotta give myself a chance :O

It's really really tougher than it was, 4 years ago.

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OH fook. I just came to know that all polys have different academic calender! OMG. And polys' academic caldenders are so different from jcs'!!! OMFG.

Boring day at work. Kel never work so no entertainment. I can only say Cat sucks to the core. Nevermind, for that $57 i ren !!

Shopped at mu after work. Got 2 tops at real bargain price = $27.95! It's not even $28! LOL. In search for my silver trekking Havaianas but to no avail. If anyone sees it, give me a call ok! I really want to get it for POLY! Haha but I'm not sure whether does it even exist or not. LOL don't force me to dye it to silver myself ah...

I am bored. Really really bored. Wonder when can i get my Hugo Boss Pure Purple............

*&^%$#@!

Damn it. Just found out that a friend at ij is taking the almost same subject combination that I had wanted to take if i appealed to yj. Yj was the only colleage that allowed me to take this subject combination as my results and secondary school subject combination weren't the most ideal to take up such a strong mathematically related subject combination. So it was like if i had ever tried to appeal to ij, i could had become an ijc-ian?

I had sort of resign myself to fate when yj rejected my appeal. WHY didn't i ever TRIED to appeal to ij? Is it all fate? Is this all what fate had planned for me? Could all this be a blessing in disguise? I'm not exactly looking forward to what awaits me at ngee ann. I've been thinking: am I on the wrong track towards my dream? Is this the most ideal path for me? I've been trying hard to convince myself that I can be just as eligible to be admited to a local uni as any other jc graduates.. Is it possible??

WHAT IF i had studied harder for Os?
WHAT IF i had put ij or yj as my 1st choice?
So many what ifs. Why must life be filled with so many regrets? Why must i always regret whichever decision that i make?

make me feel the same again.

BORED.

So damn bored. Absolutely no mood to do anything. Feel like quitting marella. I need to anyway, but maybe not so soon. I plan to work until the end of march before i officially quit marella and be a tai-tai for 2 weeks and waste my final 2 weeks of freedom away! LOL.

Hmmm. Was browsing at youtube and found the video clip of that night's results show when Yiyuan was eliminated. Its the official 3rd time that I'm watching it and i can't believe i cried! Again. Haha =.=

Size it up here --> http://youtube.com/watch?v=eFenhNO1ls8

This is really a scene that i will never ever forget in my entire life. I can replay it many times and still it is able to generate more thinkings each time i watch it. It shows so much from his eyes, his expressions and gestures. How much he wishes to continue staying in the competition even though he is being eliminated. Disappointment. Sadness. I believe he has really come thus far and learnt alot on the way.. I'm sure it has been the highlight of his life. He had done something that what a normal teenager could never be able to accomplish. I must say it is really a great experience for him and I'm sure these memories can last forever! Continue to shine and you're always the superstar in my heart :)

Tomorrow is gonna be a slack around day. Should be trying to settle all my enrolment stuffs to fully prepare myself!

Hi all!! I know its strange why do i suddenly want a blog. But never you mind. Haha, hopefully this is a good place for you to size me up, get to know me better. Check me out and see how's my life been going. I'll try to update as frequently as i can yeah? Please tag :)

School's starting soon. Can't wait to check out my new school. The new environment. The new friends that I'm gonna make. The new life that awaits me. So many camps organized for the freshmen! Can't wait to quickly get settled down and begin my this whole new journey of education!

24 April - where things are gonna be so different. so so differenttt..
No more wearing of school uniform to school.
No more waking up at 6am every morning.
No more boarding THAT cabin at THAT time to meet THAT group of friends.

I really can't bear to part with everything. Everybody's heading to different places to pursue what they really want in life. I guessed this is life? I hate changes. I know its gonna be tough. Its always hard in the beginning. But i hope all of us will slowly get used to it :DDD

Busy filling up all the enrolment forms that ngeeann has sent me. Gonna take a new passport size photo for my new eZlink card and student pass ! Cool seh, can't wait! I must take a nicenicenice one! Its gonna be with me for 3 years you know.. Still need to buy a lappy for my studies. Can't wait! I wanna buy a nice nice one. I don't want a black one. So boringg lor.. Haha.

Today had been a wwwwoooollllssss day for me. Woke up at 11+am by a call from i-don't-want-to-say-who-is-it. Haha, had breaklunch with jeng. Slacked around the library until 3pm and hsingyee came to join us! So we just slacked and hang around at my place, till 9pm. Watch xin shan shan on channel8 and I've been rotting in front of my com since then! Going out shopping with my fatty noob tml!

Till then....