*&^%$#@!

Damn it. Just found out that a friend at ij is taking the almost same subject combination that I had wanted to take if i appealed to yj. Yj was the only colleage that allowed me to take this subject combination as my results and secondary school subject combination weren't the most ideal to take up such a strong mathematically related subject combination. So it was like if i had ever tried to appeal to ij, i could had become an ijc-ian?

I had sort of resign myself to fate when yj rejected my appeal. WHY didn't i ever TRIED to appeal to ij? Is it all fate? Is this all what fate had planned for me? Could all this be a blessing in disguise? I'm not exactly looking forward to what awaits me at ngee ann. I've been thinking: am I on the wrong track towards my dream? Is this the most ideal path for me? I've been trying hard to convince myself that I can be just as eligible to be admited to a local uni as any other jc graduates.. Is it possible??

WHAT IF i had studied harder for Os?
WHAT IF i had put ij or yj as my 1st choice?
So many what ifs. Why must life be filled with so many regrets? Why must i always regret whichever decision that i make?

make me feel the same again.