SHUHUI.

just received news that a friend's grandma just passed away. hope the family is dealing well with this news. it got me thinking back to last year's O levels' prelim period; i lost my dearest materal grandma to lung failure. it wasn't easy dealing with the sudden death of a loved one. she was the one who brought me up. when my parents were busy working, my grandma would always make sure that i am well taken care of. afterall, she was the 1/3 biggest part of my childhood memories (the other 2/3 are of my parents of cos!), so when she passed away, it seemed as thought i've lost a part of me. a part of me which i will always hold fondly to. early this morning, the whole family went over to pay our respect to our late mom/grandma. i hope she rest in peace in heaven. even though she is not with us anymore, she will always be dearly missed by us.

after she passed away, our family became more close-knitted. just today, we went to have dim sum lunch together after paying respect to her! i'm really touched by this scene cos it's the 1st ever time (as far as i can remember) that we went out as a family to have a meal together! if only my grandma is with us, if only. but i am sure she will be very happy and touched if she had seen this scene. i guess it's only after my grandma left, our family started to cherish each other more.

life's really unpredictable. why do we only know how to love when we lost a dear one? people will only regret that they never love enough when they lost a loved one. why do we have to deal with all the pain? why can't we give our greatest love to the people around us before we regret only when we've lost them and no any amount of love can ever bring them back? so i urge you people out there: don't live to regret only when people of great importance to you leave you. if you love them, show it or tell it to them. do not be afraid to do so because you might lose the chance the very next day.

caught yu le bai fen bai the other day. S.H.E were the guest for the show. they were talking about a time when hebe cried on the thought that selina and ella will die before she does. at that time, selina and ella asked her how she will feel when she watch the mtvs of all their songs after both of them passed away. it really made me think of the people around me. what will happen when they leave me 1 day? i really can't imagine how hard i will cry, how heartbroken i will feel on that very day. of course, i wish that such day will never come. but death is part and parcel of life, it is something that we have to face it one day. i really do not want to live in regrets. i want to let the people around me know that i love them very much. i wish to spend all the time i have with all of them!

my family, BURDEN, friends and teachers from KCPPS/ADP/PHS/NP, those people whom had crossed my path somehow, people who had made impact on my life and of course my special him, i really do love all of you very much! fate had indeed bought all of us to me, it had to mean something. even though i may not express myself often, deep down inside my heart, you people are little pieces of jigsaw that made up the whole shuhui! so people, let's not regret anything man! live each day to the fullest and show your greatest love to people who mattered to you! we shall live our life with no regrets! =D

alright, enough of emo stuffs. haha now to talk about happier stuffs! i went to the ndp preview yesterday with zhenhui and eugene! even though i had to bang seh my BURDEN, i am so sorry for that, hope you girls can understand! it was superb man! the energy level, the atmosphere, the parade, the performance and of course, the GOODIE BAG!! haha. we really rise to the occasion man, me and zhenhui wore red and eugene wore white! we even put on the tattoo, wore the cap and played with the bombom and touch light! we felt that we had travelled back to the time when we were only primary 5 when we went for the ndp preview! so fun lah! to be able to celebrate SINGAPORE's 41st birthday with so many people, it is indeed memorable! when it came to the national anthem and pledge, me and eugene were like super eager to sing and say it with pride la! it has been about 1/2 year since we last sang the national anthem and pledge, so we did do it with all the pride we had and with our heads up high! yeah, proud to be a Singaporean ma =)

here are some photos of last night, the rest aren't with me yet. i shall wait patiently for the all-rounder jeng to send me!

the backdrop! SUPERNICE la! heard its designed by students from tp and *ahem* innova. LOL.

zhenhui; mine; eugene's tattoos! we're made in singapore!!

the bigbigBIG balloons!

the fireworks and me!

more fireworks! ive always love fireworks. despite its short span life, it always manages to make impacts on people's life and brighten up our day/night when we see it!