just received news that a friend's grandma just passed away. hope the family is dealing well with this news. it got me thinking back to last year's O levels' prelim period; i lost my dearest materal grandma to lung failure. it wasn't easy dealing with the sudden death of a loved one. she was the one who brought me up. when my parents were busy working, my grandma would always make sure that i am well taken care of. afterall, she was the 1/3 biggest part of my childhood memories (the other 2/3 are of my parents of cos!), so when she passed away, it seemed as thought i've lost a part of me. a part of me which i will always hold fondly to. early this morning, the whole family went over to pay our respect to our late mom/grandma. i hope she rest in peace in heaven. even though she is not with us anymore, she will always be dearly missed by us.

after she passed away, our family became more close-knitted. just today, we went to have dim sum lunch together after paying respect to her! i'm really touched by this scene cos it's the 1st ever time (as far as i can remember) that we went out as a family to have a meal together! if only my grandma is with us, if only. but i am sure she will be very happy and touched if she had seen this scene. i guess it's only after my grandma left, our family started to cherish each other more.

life's really unpredictable. why do we only know how to love when we lost a dear one? people will only regret that they never love enough when they lost a loved one. why do we have to deal with all the pain? why can't we give our greatest love to the people around us before we regret only when we've lost them and no any amount of love can ever bring them back? so i urge you people out there: don't live to regret only when people of great importance to you leave you. if you love them, show it or tell it to them. do not be afraid to do so because you might lose the chance the very next day.

caught yu le bai fen bai the other day. S.H.E were the guest for the show. they were talking about a time when hebe cried on the thought that selina and ella will die before she does. at that time, selina and ella asked her how she will feel when she watch the mtvs of all their songs after both of them passed away. it really made me think of the people around me. what will happen when they leave me 1 day? i really can't imagine how hard i will cry, how heartbroken i will feel on that very day. of course, i wish that such day will never come. but death is part and parcel of life, it is something that we have to face it one day. i really do not want to live in regrets. i want to let the people around me know that i love them very much. i wish to spend all the time i have with all of them!

my family, BURDEN, friends and teachers from KCPPS/ADP/PHS/NP, those people whom had crossed my path somehow, people who had made impact on my life and of course my special him, i really do love all of you very much! fate had indeed bought all of us to me, it had to mean something. even though i may not express myself often, deep down inside my heart, you people are little pieces of jigsaw that made up the whole shuhui! so people, let's not regret anything man! live each day to the fullest and show your greatest love to people who mattered to you! we shall live our life with no regrets! =D

alright, enough of emo stuffs. haha now to talk about happier stuffs! i went to the ndp preview yesterday with zhenhui and eugene! even though i had to bang seh my BURDEN, i am so sorry for that, hope you girls can understand! it was superb man! the energy level, the atmosphere, the parade, the performance and of course, the GOODIE BAG!! haha. we really rise to the occasion man, me and zhenhui wore red and eugene wore white! we even put on the tattoo, wore the cap and played with the bombom and touch light! we felt that we had travelled back to the time when we were only primary 5 when we went for the ndp preview! so fun lah! to be able to celebrate SINGAPORE's 41st birthday with so many people, it is indeed memorable! when it came to the national anthem and pledge, me and eugene were like super eager to sing and say it with pride la! it has been about 1/2 year since we last sang the national anthem and pledge, so we did do it with all the pride we had and with our heads up high! yeah, proud to be a Singaporean ma =)

here are some photos of last night, the rest aren't with me yet. i shall wait patiently for the all-rounder jeng to send me!















the backdrop! SUPERNICE la! heard its designed by students from tp and *ahem* innova. LOL.


zhenhui; mine; eugene's tattoos! we're made in singapore!!















the bigbigBIG balloons!















the fireworks and me!















more fireworks! ive always love fireworks. despite its short span life, it always manages to make impacts on people's life and brighten up our day/night when we see it!















the red and white balloons that were being released into the air after the fireworks!















the finale! all participants were back onto the big stage!






























me with them! (:















shuhui eugene zhenhui! =DDD
















huangPENG! ((: huangyong! :)















me & gene! :)















fatty & me! :)















peng* & me! :DDD

that's all for now! will post up the rest of the photos asap! enjoy the last 6+ hours of the weekend!! take care =)

oh ya, forgot to say. i finally finish and handed in all my projects that are dued this sem!!!
WOOHOOOOOO!! DAMN HAPPY, IM HAPPIER THAN WORDS CAN SAYYYY!!!!! finally can concentrate on my final term papers already! hope i do not slack through my next 2 weeks of study weeks. oh motivation oh pls =)

woohoo, today is the last day for my IS modules - LMS (life management skills) and IAC (individual and community)!! finally its all over. the whole day kick started with my IAC project's presentation! it was super nerve wreacking la, the whole group only get to see the video just 20mintues before lessons officially started! preparation was done shabbily, which explains just a lil cock up and nervousness during our presentation. however, im glad our hardwork finally paid off and hope we can get a good grade for it!

after IAC, we went for lunch together with jiaqing's group! it's sorta our last chance to have lunch together as 1/2 a class? oh ya, i saw caryn, lydia and kayjoo when i was having lunch!! HAHA, damn happy, we like gathering lidat =) anyway after lunch was last class for LMS! i will always miss every friday 1-3pm when i would relax myself and learn some life management skills in class! ms chua always made lessons more interesting and interactive. i will never forget the 14 weeks of fun, laughter and knowledge earned!

oh well, got back 1/2 of my LMS' grade today! got 3 As and 1 D+. sheesh..ugly D. but yeah,quite confirmed that i can pass this module! luckily no chance to retake this module, super paiseh if you tell ppl ure retaking IS module right. haha. i am crossing my fingers for IAC's results too, wish me luck man! =)

school's good so far. sem's coming to an end already thats why i only need to go to school 3 days for next week!! and i am having BCA hands on quiz on next thursday! it's 20% weightage for the whole module, so hope i wouldn't screw it up just like the previous quiz! meeting up with BURDEN tomorrow, so happy!
hahaha, have an enjoyable weekends people! smile always and dont forget to tag to let me know you're reading! (:

ARGHHHH!!!!






haiz the world is just so unfair. just because you get a lil too good results and people label you a secret mugger/asshole. what the hell. you reap what you sow. its not like i pretend to be a slacker in front of everybody. i just want to do my best for everything i do, so of cos i will make it a point to study hard for all my tests. if you guys are green-eyed, that's your family's problem if you do not wish to put in the effort to study and yet whine about your poor results. so to those who mattered, get your ass back to your books, do your best and keep your mouth shut. fuck this world, got my mood spoilt for nothing.

3 doors down - Here without you



A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

my fave song of the month! enjoyyyy!! =) *leave a tag, and have a nice day alright! take care peeps, its the weekend very soonnnnnn WOOHOOOOOO!

yeah! here are some pics from joey's bday chalet last saturday!!















joey & bro blowing off the candles on their bday cake! brother love-so sweet right :)















me:"wahlao why u diao me, bday boy?"















happy peeps who turned up to share this special day with joey!















all smiles - pretty girls with the bday boys! =)















yeah, group photo!!















me, zhenhui & hsingyee!!

SEXY 17 ONCE AGAIN TO JOEY PEH!

oh ya forgot to mention that i saw him today in school...



















alfred from soul!!!!
haha he's quite cute and looks a lil shy. haha so i guess he's in np too also huh? haha. yup thats all for now! =)

yeah! im back to updateee! haha. supposed to have lessons today at 10am but guess what time i woke up?
9.30am!!
oh my god la, luckily my dad drove me over and i was only 5 mins late!
had lessons till 3pm. boring school man.
anyway i had my macroecons test at 5pm just now! not a very tough paper but.. let's just hope for the best lah huh? hahaha. finally is the weekends! but i can't slack, need to finish up my projects, presentations and all the tutorials that are dued next week!! arghh!

monday - PBL(problem-based learning) presentation
tuesday - self-declare holiday????
wednesday - BMGT presentation
thursday - BCA quiz
friday - LMS read&share assignment dued!

argh, my next week looks so sick. i really hate school. and super disappointed in people whom i thought i could depend on. so now i know, the world is a selfish place. to think that i did regard you once as a friend. and u can just heartlessly leave me in the lurch. what a friend. thanks for letting me see your true colours now. but this let me realized that there are actually people around me who cares. although it was a simple gesture, it made me realize and i saw the good side of him and the bad side of you =)

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO JOEY!!
will be back to update soon! don't miss me yea?! :)

arghh. duno why am i feeling so stressed up. these 2 weeks of school can really kill man. tomorrow having super important business management (BMGT) lecture because i need to do a presentation on it! and after that got individual and community (IAC) project meeting, the project is dued this friday! THIS FRIDAY AND WE HAVENT EVEN STARTED DOING IT!! oh my oh my.

wednesday got written communication (WCOM) individual assignment during tutorial, weightage of 20%!! stressedddd!

thursday got macroeconomics (MAEC) lecture and tutorial and my last day to chiong my econs because friday will be the 2nd common test paper for MAEC! weightage of another 20%!!

oh my goddddddddd. i hope this week wouldn't kill me yet and leave me some breath to deal with next week. EVEN MORE HECTIC! SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!

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